Just for kicks and because it's Friday, and because I am too busy to casts the nets, I thought I would bore you with an entry from my jounal dated 10/10/07. As I read over it, I wonder about where my head and energies were at then and if some proverbial progeress has been made. The jury is still out on the latter. Names have been changed to protect the guilty and innocent.

10/10/07-  On a plane to Atlanta for the NAFEM show, visit P*** P***, and on to Raleigh to visit T** T***, M** T**, and DB****, and then on to Wilmington and Wrightsville Beach to hammer out an outline for “TFC.” It has been 1 month since I quit boozing it up. I feel OK although I have been smoking cigs and c****, the latter which relaxes me but also brings on a crisis of conscience for the things I do which I shouldn’t. Booze did cause some of my more stupid moments or indulgences but I wonder if quitting will cut-down on these? One hopes.

I do miss drinking especially when friends are over, there are parties to go to, or good food like clams over pasta is on the menu. A bottle of white is sorely missed. Having said that, I have not had a deep panic attack like I sometimes have during business dinners with intimidating bigwigs. H***** and I are kinder to each other except when there is a pack of cigs floating around. They drive her crazy much the same way massive amounts of booze do me. Managing addictions is not the only challenge.

Writing is finally moving forward. Not that I have anything on paper just yet, mostly a bunch of notes- but I feel I understand now what writing a good book or screenplay is about. I know what is expected of me (I also know how difficult it is!) Part of this trip is dedicated to some good hard work on TFC. I will be angry with myself if I sink into a morass of loneliness and slothful indulgence.

Work is going OK I guess. We are not making any big accounts or sales but we are making some small accounts. S***-San, the President of N**** Japan, is in LA for a few weeks. It seems he brought his mistress with him. Ballsy. Like many Asian Bosses, he talks a lot but rarely listens. T** and M***** barely translated. He-S****-just went on and on. T** gets on my nerves sometimes because he forgets a lot and seems to not care about employee benefits but I know this is not the case. He is a nice guy but seems over-burdened. M***** is plain slow. But I am sure I pose a lot of trouble to those two as well. MJ**** is in it for the laughs and to say he has a job despite getting a windfall of $$$ from his grandmother and his father’s passing.